and it suddenly occurs to me..

that shit is starting to hit the fan.

and its being sprayed all over the room. splattering right into my eyes. blurring all vision.

I GOT SO MUCH THINGS TO DO B4 EXAMS!

and not to mention, the decision of whether to go for the grad trip and put my performance at NUS invitational at risk? or abandon the one and only chance i have left to go on a trip with the hall guys, and train up just for the one day?

decisions decisions decisions.

can i live with 2 weeks of fun, and 1 day's disgrace?

or can i live with 2 weeks of regret, and 1 day's honour?


someone, please, advice me. asap.

Creativity

The Height of Creativity Comes At The Peak of Boredom. I Am Usually Creative.



- Lim Woo Ping Wilfred -

the prelude of doom?

28 days to exams. and i am not in the mood at all to study.

and i got 1 report left to rite, another to edit, 1 demo to do. 6 modules totally UNREVISED.

now now, how am i gonna die?

someone has gotta drag me to study.

gossips makes the world go round..

now now, i was just thinking. why do pple gossip. why do pple like to talk bout others behind their backs, even though the pple's actions totally DO NOT concern them.

juz gotta say, those pple who gossip are sad pple. they dun haf enough conversational skills or content to keep a conversation going. any conversation. that they have to bring in gossip and watever not, to spice up the conversations.

i mean, its ok to talk bout pple, if the things and actions they did or are doing, affects u. directly or indirectly. but, talking bout pple's love lives? bout pple's interests? what they think bout other people? seriously, its quite obvious they things they do or think do not affect u. unless u r pissed jealous bout e person.


but, its quite sad really. those pple.


you all need help. professional help.

So Close

You're in my arms
And all the world is gone
The music playing on
For only two
So close together

And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye
And never knew
So close was waiting
Waiting here with you
And now, forever, I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close

So close to reaching
That famous happy and
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Now you're beside me
And look how far we've come
So far
We are
So close...

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We're so close to reaching
That famous happy ending
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Let's go on dreaming
Though we know we are
So close
So close, and still
So far...

problem

i just realised something bout myself. it could be true.

I think it is.

no matter who comes along, i just have to pick on the nitty gritty stuff of the person. this not good, that not good.


maybe thats why the One might never come along.

hmmm.

monday night jetty..

went bedok jetty after appreciation night just now. needed to clear my mind of some stuff. exams coming, deadlines coming, i cannot slack anymore. i cannot let anything bog me down anymore. i need to get my ass moving again. its been stagnant since a month ago.

its really a very very very nice feeling to be there again. walking in the night, listening to the waves beat against the shore, juz strolling down the empty running track. thinking. its super nice a feeling.

but why is it that i din manage to clear much outta my head? i dun even know for sure what to clear out of my head first. i dont even knw for sure wat to do. its like, there is something inside, but i cant find anything there. weird. i am a confused kid.

and its super sweet to see couples, married, middle aged couples to be strolling down the same stretch of road i was walking, hand in hand, just chatting, smiling, looking at each other. 4 couples i saw. at 12 midnight. just spending time with each other there. oh how i so envy them. when will i find such a someone?

bottomline for now: DONT LOOK FOR ANYONE. DO WAT IS IMPORTANT NOW. STUDIES. its the final sem. better not mess it up.

oh, congrats to JY on your new status. time to be more sensible already. haha.

and i am free.. for now

i got my product stablised on thursday night. i got my report done on friday 5 am.

its nw left to refine it. plenty to refine, bt i got 3 weeks.

2 more lab reports left, and i am set for exams.

and an FYP demostration.

and an FYP oral presentation.


hmmmm.

beginning of the end

its gonna be end of a chapter in my life. the ending of uni life.

its been a good 4 years. all the fun that i had, all the misery that came along with it. those whom i really talked to will only know how much pain i went thru in the last academic year.

but i learnt a lot of things in this 4 years. much more then i would have anywhere else. to think back about wat pple told me when i first entered hall 12 as a confident, driven person willing to try out new stuff. "the way you do things, its not the tradition of hall 12. its sure to piss off a lot of snrs in hall". i still remember who told me, where it was told to me.

year 2 was more fun then year 1, responsibilities still the same. year 3, decided to step up to take over a post nobody was willing to take over. and its been a downhill ever since. the downhill was steep enough for me to crash and burn, to juz kill away the overwhelming passion i had for the hall. seen a lot of things that year too. seen how pple whom i tot would believe and trust in me, trusted rumours and gossips and badmouthing. i guess the truth is no match for juicy rubbish. but i also found a small handful of people who stood by me. trusting me. and i am beyond thankful for those people.

year 4, decided to step out to join the sch team. had so much fun with the team. there is no politics there. its just swim, swim, swim. train train train. its so much fun. and its also time to concentrate on studies. performed e best sem in the whole of my ntu life in year 4 sem 1. though i could have put in much much more effort. but i am not tuned to mugging, and there is only so much i can do. and to top it off, its Grey's Anatomy's fault. 2 seasons in 2 weeks of exams.

random thoughts again. not so much for others, more to jot down wats going on in my mind. wait till i got more time to organise my thoughts, i shall do it nicely.

last 2nd hall event tonight. exam supper.

last hall event next monday. appreciation night.

and it marks the end of my involvements in hall.

damn. why do i get this achy feeling in my heart. booo.

random thoughts.

i have this urge to blog something. everyone around me is rushing FYP report. i am not, cos i am stuck with mine. i cant do anymore till i get my final part working. LCD. and since i cant get it up, i cant do my report. meaning i will die this weekend. no life. haiz. meaning i am quite free now. shid.

love love love. its all around me recently. ok, so couples are forming up again. but its the single pple i been hearing from too. all the "what is love", "why love", and all the "i need love". when it comes it comes la. if it doesnt it doesnt. fate! dats wat i keep telling others. but its something i dun believe. haha. love is overrated.

i still cant picture myself holding hands with a girl and strolling down orchard road. walking down some scenic place with the "girl of my dreams" and stuff. its like. ewwww. i need to get used with shopping with girls. not that i mind doing that, but i really cant get used to it aymore. used to do it a lot, but no more. i need to get used to the fact dat i might have to factor into my life another person, and i cant go wherever i like, on an impulse, anymore.

but i still feel lonely. i yearn to have a feminine touch in my life. its too masculine now. boooo.

the magic number.

from 01 Feb 2008 to 01 March 2008

i spent $1082.89.

my greatest amount of spending by far in my life.

and its not on a lot of stuff. basic needs. so i went out to eat and enjoy a few times, but that amounted up to 300 max. so where did the rest go?

i am gonna starve for the nxt 3 months. dun ask me out.

i shall lead a sad, lonely life.