Jaded.

Sigh.

I dont even know what to say anymore. I dont even know what to think anymore. I dont even want to think or feel anymore. I am just so... numb to the world. And everything that's happening around me.

I dont feel the happiness and joy that I used to feel anymore. Its just day after day after day after day after day of work, and then 2 days of reprise. Which doesnt really do me any good, since I have nothing to do, nowhere to go. No one to look forward to. So whats the point?

I dont even think bout my future anymore. Bad. I am better then this.

I am just.. jaded. I am just sick of everything. I dont wanna pretend to be happy anymore, to be happy bout what I am doing, to make people think I am happy doing what I am doing. I am tired, of all this false appearances.

I think I only blog when I am down. This shouldnt be the case.

Sigh.