Saturday, December 29, 2007

not good. but not bad either.

CS803 B
EE4041 B
EE4901 C+
EE4903 B-
EE4905 B
EE4906 C+
EE4907 C
HW310 B


not exactly very good. but at least its a totally different change from the results that i got my last 6 sems.

exhaustion.

i am so damn tired.

why do i have to stupidly agree to go to work when pple ask? even when i have been doing so non stop for the last 2 weeks? no breaks at all?

why am i telling myself its all for the money?

am i trying to kill myself? i think so.

hmm.

i need a break.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

exhausting exciting days

wed was indeed a hectic day for me. went for the 2-star kayaking in the morning, rushed back to sch in the afternoon to be 3 min late for the polo match, had lifesaving training in the evening. reached back home totally exhausted.. and woke up today for another day of kayaking.

gotta say i was rather apprehensive bout the kayaking. not that i dunno how to kayak, been doing that a lot the last 8 yrs. but there was this worry that was nagging me. bout wat i dunno. maybe i was afraid i could not perform well enough to pass the assessment. haha.. but today went super well. had so much fun, almost din wanna come back to land. eskimo bow rescue provides to be super exciting! capsized so many times and stayed upside down in water till i really lost count of it. but damn, was that fun!

tmr's expedition day. though its just a sad 6km to the merlion and back, but at least we are on the move!

polo match was a disappointment to me again though. my 4 years playing for hall 12 only saw me score 1 goal. i think i did score it. but assisted plenty. defended plenty. never had any other chance for me to score. sadly. yesterday saw me missing my only shot for the day. goodness. why did i not shoot higher. think it has to be fated. hope i can really score 1 more goal just before i leave NTU. it would be a good swansong for me.....

oh damn. i am getting nostalgic and emo. haha....

Saturday, December 15, 2007

weekend!

and it totally doesnt feel like one.

i am still going to work on saturday, and i got a sunday packed full of stuff that i am not doing for myself. argh.

nvm. at least i am gonna go for prata tmr after work. looking forward to that! i am getting sooo deprived of prata. NICE PRATA.

time to get back to my CS. i need practice...

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

simply awesome

i am falling sick.

after surviving thru exams. trainings. watever not.

falling sick nw. its so WTF.

Monday, December 10, 2007

everything is bout the money

i see people around me enjoying life. spending time with people around them. doing fun things. going to beaches. eating nice food. having quality time with their other halves.

i am working day in day out. come back so shagged i cant do any training of my own. not that the dreary weather would allow me to. and i am so shagged out i cant stay awake beyond 12. my off days are spent in sch in labs, or at trainings. and staying at home listening to people bang bang bang. and i do all that all alone. nobody beside me that i can look forward to.

damn. do i feel lonely.

and tired.

i really really hate my life now.

why is everything just bout the money? isnt there anything that doesnt involve money?

Thursday, December 6, 2007

its been too long

wednesday was mambo night. wednesday, after over a year of absence from the night life, i finally made an appearance at mambo. music was rather disappointing, so were the drinks. crowd was horrible, jam packed to the max. but damn, did i feel good after that. its been too long. think i should go there again. soon. not to mambo, somewhere else i could enjoy myself better, with better music, better dance companions.

went to work today after 1.5 hrs of slp. din slp e whole day at work, went round chatting, talking, doing stuff. am amazed with myself i am still alive after all this while.

think i should get a good rest tonight. tmr will be the start of training proper. i have slacked long enough.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

tiring tiring

exhausting first 2 days back at work.

totally died when i got back to my room. no idea if i am juz too weak or watever. crap.