Letting Go?? Moving On??

i saw this question on my friend's msn nick today. and i had this compelling urge to present my interpretation of the meanings, which i failed pretty miserably. but i think my interpretations of them are pretty on the spot. took 23.8 yrs of my life to figure them out.....

a friend of mine, A, broke up from a relationship of 4 years over. A got together with another person, and their first anniversary is coming soon, if not already over. however, A still thinks bout the previous person. checks on the person's blog. friendster. and feels miserable when A sees the person with a new partner. goes to places where they used to frequent in their 4 years together, and feel really upset bout it.

has A let go? has A moved on? i personally feel that A has moved on, but A hasnt let go. if u did fully let go of something, you will not feel upset bout the person anymore. absolutely nothing will upset u. seeing the old person with someone new will not trigger a flood of emotions into u. going to places that the both of u used to frequent will not be stepping into emo land. so A has moved on, has gotten someone new. its good. Letting go of a 4 year relationship isnt gonna be easy. and it takes more then just a few months to let go. so u can move on, and not wallow in your own self pity, but it takes much more time for the internal wounds to heal.

so can u let go, and not move on? i think its possible. i think a living example is me. i have let go totally of my past r/s (after 15 months, wat a loser, i know). absolutely nothing (mark my words) can upset me bout it already. but i haven moved on yet. i am still afraid of wat a future r/s might bring to me. the pain, the sorrow, the despair. and so, i am potentially wallowing in my own self pity and fear, and refusing to move on, to take a step forward. and i always complain that i am gonna die single. which actually is my fault. own fault.

Moving on is important. more important then letting go. time will heal the pain, and when the pain goes away, u r letting go. by moving on, by allowing someone else into your life, u r allowing yourself a second chance in love, and the person will slowly, but surely, bring u out of the pain. hold your hands, and walk u out of the chains.

but if you dont move on, even if u have let go, so wat. u r caught in limbo. in the twilight zone. where the sun doesnt shine. its just empty. u have nothing holding u back, but there is nothing to look forward to. and u juz drown yourself in trainings, work, and more trainings, to take away the emptiness. to fill out the time. but of course, thats just me.

i am ranting. i duno if i make sense. i am sure i dun make sense. but wat the hell. if anyone wanna dispute, call me. at least it would take a lonely portion of my day out.

somebody just shoot me.

nostalgia

Verse 1
Lives are in the making here,
Hearts are in the waking here,
Mighty undertaking here,
Up and On!

We are arming for the fight,
Pressing on with all our might,
Pluming wings for higher flight,
Up and On!

(CHORUS)

Verse 2
Fair before us lies the way,
Time for work and time for play;
Fill the measure while we may,
Up and On!

Life and time will not delay,
Time is running fast away,
Life is now today; today;
Up and On!

(CHORUS)

Verse 3
Foes in plenty we shall meet,
Hearts courageous scorn defeat;
So we press with eager feet,
Up and On!

Ever onward to the fight,
Ever upward to the Light,
Ever true to GOD and RIGHT,
Up and On!

CHORUS
Up Boys!
truest fame
Lies in high endeavour;
Play the game!
keep the flame
Burning brightly ever!

catching up..

been catching up with a few people that i haven been chatting with for ages..

- L -
i feel horrible that you are in such a low state now.. when everything seems to be going not well for u, and everything seems to be just standing in your way.. but i am sure u will be able to pull out of this whole thing, being a better, stronger girl, which i know u r.

- TF -
u floorball addict. i shall forgive u for pretending not to see me at SRC that day. but u better have lunch with me soon. in case u forgot, u still owe me something. haha.


and i think i still find it the sweetest thing to watch people fall in love, and spend time with each other, enjoying each other's company. i think the sweetest thing of all is to be able to experience it yourself. the process of falling in love is soo wonderful, it simply blows your mind away. makes u feel soo.. invincible. like there is nothing in the world dat can bring u down.

hmm. when will i get it? hmmm.

Leona Lewis - I'm You

How many times
Are you gonna take it
Look in my eyes
Help me make this make sense

Night after night
You sat up and cried
Wondering when you're gonna see things clearer
You don't even realise
That at this very moment
You're talking to yourself in the mirror

It's true
So you think I'm strong but you're feelin that you're weak
Baby I'm you
But we're one in the same so you're just as strong as me
Baby I'm you
And we deserve better it's time for us to leave
You know what to do
Cause I'm not a fool
So neither are you
Baby I'm you

Oh you're not crazy
If only you'd realize

That you and I
Have all the help we need

So why are we sitting here on the floor
(listen to me)
We ain't cryin no more
I am your soul
I am your heart
My strength is yours (Oh my strength is yours)

Baby it's true
So you think I'm strong but you're feelin that you're weak
Baby I'm you
But we're one in the same so you're just as strong as me
Baby I'm you
And we deserve better it's time for us to leave
You know what to do
Cause I'm not a fool
So neither are you
Baby I'm you

So pick yourself up right now
We've been here too long
We've overstayed it enough
That might have been
It's been a long time gone

So wipe away the tears
Ain't nothing for us here
The time has come to move on

Oooohhhhhwwww

Baby we deserve better
And we're far too strong
To let this go on
Baby I'm you

So you think I'm strong but you're feelin that you're weak
Baby I'm you
But we're one in the same so you're just as strong as me
Baby I'm you
And we deserve better it's time for us to leave
You know what to do
Cause I'm not a fool
So neither are you

Baby I'm you [x3]





to you.

and to anyone else who is feeling weak. dejected. overwhelmed.

you are as strong as i am.

Lifehouse - Broken

The Broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm holdin on)(I'm holdin on)
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
[Broken lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
Is there healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin on)(I'm holdin on)
(I'm still holdin on) (I'm holdin on)
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay
The broken light on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
There is healing
In your name (In your name)
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin')(I'm holdin' on)(I'm still holdin') (I'm holdin' on) (I'm still holdin')
Barely holding on to you (I'm still holdin on)
Barely holdin on to you[Photo]







am i still holding on???

why does my heart still ache.

and it all goes to waste

i juz downgraded my system to an XP so that i could run a program. BUT. i cant fucking run it still.

FOR SOME UNKNOWN FUCKING REASON.

now am i pissed.

Jumper

awesomely cool movie.

dammit. how i wish i could be like him. anytime. anywhere.

it was nice meeting up after soooo long. haha.

stretched.

have you ever been had so many things to do, that you have taken a tat too much things for your own liking. and you want to do everything well. everything fast. everything your way. and everything that you want doesnt really happen?

i feel stretched. plenty of deadlines to meet.

argh.