so it all falls into place...

and it all makes sense. why i feel so fucked up recently.

its all the couples i see. its all the people holding hands. its the season for new relationships. so many people getting together. so many people being so happily attached. all the smiles and love that i see and feel, its almost tangible.

and watching pple that you still have a soft spot for, being all so nice and comfy with others, and all u can do is juz to stand one side and watch. boy, does that suck. maybe its jealousy. maybe its happiness that i feel for them. maybe its the feeling of being left out. maybe its the feeling of not being able to be like them, being nice and comfy with each other. maybe its the impression that you will never be the one. maybe its all of the above, a pinch of this, a sprinkling of that. and it all adds up to a wonderful dish, well seasoned.

i like to represent my feelings with songs. but this feeling i have now, a blender-mix of it, i totally cant thnk of any song to represent.

listening to gary barlow's So Help Me Girl, and how how how how i wish there will be a someone there for me to sing it to. haha. fat hope eh. u cant even feed yourself. left with 14 bucks till the end of the month.

now now, how exciting can that be.



STOP THINKING SHIT AND CONCENTRATE ON WATS MORE IMPORTANT.

FYP AND CAREER.


nothing else matters.

i juz hope i can b strong enough, and listen to my ownself and reasoning. haha and i am supposed to be over you. all e best in whoever that you deem fit to be the one for you.

time for a can of maximator.